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they say home is where the heart is,
but they never claimed it had to be beating.
if this town is all there is to living,
then I'm dead,
and these dusty dirt roads
are my sad little gravestones.

there's a harsh winter wind.
I'm breathing,
but it's the same air I've inhaled
since I first opened my
surgical steel eye to the world.

remember the pale pink dress
I wore to our senior prom?
you held me
under the fuzzy yellow confetti light.
I loved you because you were so gentle,
and when I fell apart,
you were the only person who knew
I could fix myself on my own.
you twirled me like I mattered,
because you knew that one day I would die.

you forgot that you would, too.

you are wrought iron starlight,
my crooked grey dove.
you live in the sidewalk cracks,
moaning my name as I
cautiously step over the gorges.

my mother calls, from time to time.
I've learned to let the phone ring
because her voice is not the one I want to hear.
she's too tepid, unsure.
she's the link strangling me,
pinning me to this dim diner
and that empty car lot.

my hands are so cold
without yours around them.
we hatched great escapes and
hefty plans for freedom,
but we never got farther
than the border of our high school fence.
cool metal cut the throat
of our stifled hope.

yet I sit, restlessly content,
burrowed in TV advertisements
and homespun impatience.
I pass the cemetery every morning
on my way to work,
headstones staring at my neck,
itching to strike bone.
everyone I've ever known will rest there,
screaming beneath witch grass.

I'm gonna die
and no one's gonna know my name.
not even you,
'cause you're dead, too.

I suppose it's just as well:
I'm living in a comfortable hell.
this is inspired by the song "Call Home" by Wild Light, particularly these lines:

"Now the moonlight lights up all of the dirty back roads,
past the graveyard family plot where everyone I know...
...goes."

i dunno what happened here. I was listening to that song, and i got really sad and then i wrote this. what do you think?

2014 littleblueraccoon

EDIT: guys. guys, front page again? whoa, thank you so much! i just...i can't believe i ever got to the front page at all, and now i'm here for the second time in a row this week. i just...thank you. i feel so loved.
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:iconnellie0224:
Nellie0224 Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Stunned 
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Student Writer
:giggle:
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RoronoaZoro65543 Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014
This is so incredible.... :wow: It reminded me a lot of myself and that I just take all of the bittersweet moments and accept them for what they are. Thanks for uploading. :hug:
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2014  Student Writer
Of course! Thank you for reading! :heart:
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BooLeeTheKid67 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Wow. This is so wonderful and it really reminds me of my hometown in a bittersweet kind of way. Nice work!
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you so much! :heart:
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:iconbook-lover98:
book-lover98 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!!!!! Can I use it for my Forensics thing?
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you! :hug:

May I ask what the thing is? c:
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:iconbook-lover98:
book-lover98 Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
A forensics competition. Well there are two competitions and then state.
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Student Writer
I'm sorry, but I don't think I feel comfortable with you using this in a contest. I also think you would get disqualified because you didn't write this. I'm also not sure what this has to do with forensics. This is a poem of mine that I'm actually proud of, and that doesn't happen often, so I would appreciate it if you would respect my wishes. Thanks!
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:iconbook-lover98:
book-lover98 Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
I will and thank you for at least listening. I won't use it.
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2014  Student Writer
Of course! I appreciate that! :)
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Namida713 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2014
; w ; so sad yet pretty ,<3
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you! :tighthug:
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:iconyeather:
yeather Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014
Tragic yet beautiful. Almost made me cry.
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you so much! (I'm sorry you almost cried, though, haha)
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:iconyeather:
yeather Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2014
Don't apologize! It's a good thing. 
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PerfectionByError Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is Amazing!
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you! :huggle:
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:iconamateureccentric:
AmateurEccentric Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Student Writer
This is lovely.
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you! :heart:
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:iconlunar-glow:
lunar-glow Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014
This is beautiful! The symbolism and metaphors...and its so sad, but I love it!
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you! I'm glad you like it! Llama Emoji-10 (Shy) [V1] 
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:iconlunar-glow:
lunar-glow Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014
Of course. :D
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:iconluckycoyote:
luckyCoyote Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Hobbyist
i love the first part of it (: and the rest, but mostly the first
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you so much! :glomp:
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drawn-on-wings Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I think it's beautiful, it almost sounds like a song!
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Student Writer
Ooh, cool! I didn't think of it as a song, but now that you mention it, I see what you mean. Thank you so much! :hug:
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Bee047 Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Professional Artisan Crafter
Those lines were so true for me a few years ago;
" my mother calls, from time to time.
I've learned to let the phone ring
because her voice is not the one I want to hear.
she's too tepid, unsure.
she's the link strangling me,
pinning me to this dim diner  "

You wright beautifully!
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you! (:
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anamsohail Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
<3
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Student Writer
:dummy:
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SevgiOzp Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014
Having lost not a love but a very dear friend myself at a young age I have to say this is almost haunting. But please do believe in the days that you will be able to learn to live with those memories and keep on with whatever life you have, and it will be the ultimate coming-of-age that will make you a stronger person.
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Student Writer
I'm sorry for your loss. I like to think that what you say is definitely true. You can't grow and get better until you face the past and look to the future. :heart:

Thank you very much!
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CecilyRoseMidnight Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I definitely like this one, to me it sounds like a suicidal teen/twenty something who's having a hard time getting over the death of their first love. And something tells her that she needs to leave, that its time to move on, but yet people pull her back. The only way for her to move on is to leave town, or die. 
God, this ones good.
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Student Writer
Wow, you hit the nail directly on the head with the story line! Thank you so much! :blushes:
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CecilyRoseMidnight Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:D
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OniVrask Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer

"The motto was just a lie
It says home is where your heart is
But what a shame
Cause everyone's heart
Doesn't beat the same
It's beating out of time"

- Jesus of Seburbia by Green Day

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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Student Writer
Eeep, I love Green Day! American Idiot is their best album, I think. :headbang: Guitar Player revamp 
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OniVrask Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I just thought the lyrics were appropriate to post as a comment.
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014  Student Writer
:nod: I think so, too. Thanks! 
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OniVrask Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome
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OniVrask Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'd have to agree with you on that.
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13ZexyDragons Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Student General Artist
Wow, as usual, my heart bleeds from the beauty.Worship Happy cry (Tears of joy) 
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Student Writer
Aw, thank you so much! :tighthug:
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CaptainDashkov Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is absolutely incredible. Fantastic. You have amazing writing skill. Well done o.o
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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you! I really appreciate your sweet words! :huggle:
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:iconcaptaindashkov:
CaptainDashkov Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist

Your first line really captured me. I hope you always continue writing. Splendid work ^_^

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:iconlittleblueraccoon:
littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014  Student Writer
Aw, I hope I do, too! Llama Emoji-10 (Shy) [V1] 
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InklingsOfOblivion Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is absolutely stunning. :heart:
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