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you're disgusting.
i hope you know that every time you show your face,
i cringe, collapse into rage.

you flay my body with cutting board scissors
and laugh at the sight of my blood.
it's everywhere, staining everything.
my clothes are ruined,
splotched with your dirty curse.
i can't ignore you
when you're so persistent,
grinding me like coffee beans
to grit beneath your boots.

i'm a shipwreck. you're the bottom of the ocean,
suffocating everything.
i collapse into bathroom stalls
like a rag doll,
falling on my knees and begging for mercy.

you're the reason i have medication.
i swallow pill after pill,
but they don't let me forget you.
i feel you within me,
twisting, pulling at my guts.

there's some idea out there
that women are like snow-capped strawberries,
but you are the part of me
that releases the bitter, razor-edged leaves.
you cut.

my mom tells me i'm being melodramatic.
it's just a period, after all.
did

did i just write an entire poem about being on your period?

...

an angst poem for every girl out there who's familiar with the multitude of b.s. that comes with owning a uterus! sometimes i don't even know what i'm thinking. i'm most likely gonna scrap this because it's so weird. sheesh. though it's kind of funny how dramatic it is. i'm gonna go sleep for ten years. i don't want school tomorrow please let it snow a foot or two tonight so i don't have to go.

EDIT: ALIKJUHFLOIKJLHDFSCNSLKJDHFEIQKWA FRONT PAGE WHAT THE HECKY MAN

i just i just what i am speechless right about now. thank you so much for this! i never expected this poem, of all things, to get anywhere! but i really appreciate it and your comments have been hilarious! :heart:

btw it did not snow a foot or two last night and i had to go to school. but there's gonna be a big storm tomorrow so there's hope of cancellation. huzzah! :la:

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JungBalAware Featured By Owner May 8, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
I read this thinking it was about an abusive relationship or bullying until I got to the end and I was really shocked. 
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner May 22, 2015  Student Writer
hehehe :D
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pawsupbaby Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This is my favourite thing on the entire planet I don't think you understand
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2015  Student Writer
Lmao thank you :rofl:
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puddlethecat Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Hahahahha, this is great! :DClap Clap Clap Clap 
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014  Student Writer
hehe, thank you! :bow:
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puddlethecat Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
hehehe your welcome Clap Meow :3 
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Fihyn Featured By Owner May 7, 2014
Thank you so much for this laugh. X'D This is so hilariously understandable right now you have no idea. ;o;
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner May 14, 2014  Student Writer
Ha, you're welcome! Thank YOU for reading and commenting. ;)
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Fihyn Featured By Owner May 19, 2014
No problem! ^^
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darkyarti Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Student General Artist
o.o im scared of having my first period now...
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Student Writer
Aw, don't be scared! I'm not gonna sugarcoat it, periods really do suck. But you're tough and it's nothing you can't handle. We all have to get 'em, so you've got to make the most of it. haha and this is really dramatic, too. :)
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squishboots Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
omg
 
WHAT

i identify, but
WHATTTT      I think I've fainted.
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Student Writer
trolololol
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halierae Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
OMG YOU HAD ME WORRIED XD
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Student Writer
Hehe, SIKE!
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PolkaDottedCoffeeMug Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2014  Student General Artist
Ohmygosh that was so serious... and then you get to the last part where you find out that it's about periods... That was really good though! Keep writing!
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you! I will, don't worry! :dummy:
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x-Sinister-Chaos-x Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Student
Yeah screw periods! Screw our uterus(es)? trying to kill themselves by cutting off their blood flow. We don't want you here, either, but let's try to be civil, menstrual cycle!
"that women are like snow-capped strawberries" adore this line. It just gives me tingles. Don't know why :)
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2014  Student Writer
YEAH, MAN! Hehe, thank you so much! That line is actually partially inspired by the poem "Bitter Strawberries" by Sylvia Plath.
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x-Sinister-Chaos-x Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014  Student
Just got a chance to look up the poem! Her name sounds very familiar, though I can't recall where I've heard it. So sad to learn she committed suicide.
Sounds like it's commenting on Communism, to me, so it's interesting you were able to work that into a menstrual cycle poem :) How did you think of "snow-capped strawberries"? I'm having a bit of trouble seeing how that line was inspired by Sylvia Plath's poem.
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Student Writer
I'm in love with Slyvia Plath's poetry. If you're interested, some of my favorites from her are "Child," "Childless Woman," "Cinderella," "Mad Girl's Love Song," "Daddy," and "Among the Narcissi." Her work truly inspires me. She had a difficult life, and aspects of it can be picked up from her work like little snippets from a diary entry. Her life ended terribly. :(

I think it's about Communism, as well, particularly about sending the children off to war. The woman berating her daughter and the few final lines about cradling the strawberry before ripping it from the stem seem to point to that. I imagine that she sees the people as strawberries, something you pick and send off. When she asks how many quarts they picked, I imagine it like "How many people do we have at our disposal?" The line about "snow-capped strawberries" was inspired by the images this poem gave to me. I picture this poem in the summertime, but reading this poem made me think about strawberries in general. Something about them seemed strictly womanly to me. People tend to think that women are fragile, pretty little decorations, something dainty and clean like a snow-capped strawberry. However, I wanted to point out that this isn't really true. Women are tougher than that.

...If that explanation makes any sense. haha. Sorry if it's confusing.
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x-Sinister-Chaos-x Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2014  Student
I was just at a poetry slam convention, by the way, and a girl wrote and performed a poem about Sylvia Plath in her honor! I think she titled it "51 Winters Since Sylvia Plath's Suicide"
I couldn't believe she did it in a kitchen by turning on the gas - that is such an unheard of way to commit suicide. The poem was very feminist-centered; I think one of the lines talked about how in 1953 women were expected to stay in the kitchen so that's what she did. It was chilling - I wish you could have heard it! Maybe look for it online (or I'll at least try) in a few days on Youtube to see if someone filmed and uploaded a video of her performance
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2014  Student Writer
Ooooh, that sounds so good! Man. I wish I could read it for myself. Yes, she killed herself in her kitchen while her children were there with her. I think she locked them in their rooms and blocked the bottom of the door so none of the gas could poison them. I can't imagine what the kids did after that. I don't want to, actually. It's just heartbreaking.

Whoa, that's a powerful statement. A lot of people view Plath as a feminist icon. I think she was definitely a strong woman. After all, she battled with depression and improper treatments and a husband she didn't love and a father she had problems with. She got through all of that, but it was just too much.

This poem sounds amazing. If you find a video, please send it my way! I'd love to see it! 
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x-Sinister-Chaos-x Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2014  Student
No, I liked your explanation - it helped.
Still swear I know Sylvia Plath's name from somewhere else, but I can't recall where from! I just read a couple of the poems you suggested and I like Childless Woman, particularly the verse 
"Uttering nothing but blood---
Taste it, dark red!
 And my forest"
I like the urge for the reader to taste her blood -  it's so bold. And it really makes me feel like she's trying to pull the reader into her world of pain, like we can't turn away from how she feels.

Glory, suicide always makes my heart ache. It's always a struggle to fight to argue depression is a mental health issue and not just "feeling down", you know? People can't just pick themselves up on their own when they suffer from depression - someone with a broken leg can't just start walking again without a crutch. Sometimes I feel like depression and suicidal tendencies are glossed over in society and we don't fully try to understand these emotions.
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2014  Student Writer
Oh, I'm glad it did! I like that Plath is so candid and raw, yet lovely. She isn't afraid to use words that wouldn't be considered "ladylike," and she really pushes the boundaries. I also like her imagery, the way you can pick out pieces of the poem to find the real pain of her life. It's haunting and something about it is just real, and I admire that.

She has a poem called "The Beast," I think, and I'm pretty sure it's about her husband, whom she hated. The whole poem relates her husband to some sort of disgusting animal. One particular line that hit hard was this one: "Call him any name, he'll come to it." Thinking of the man as an animal, I picture some kind of mangy little dog too stupid to realize she's not in love with him, and he keeps following her around. Thinking of the man as a human, though...well, the line speaks for itself.

Oh dear.

Metal pain deserves to be treated in the same way the physical pain does. Many people don't realize that, like you said. 
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x-Sinister-Chaos-x Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Student
Oh, right, only recommendation -- the title. Girl, it's so vague it's like a Craigslist ad (<--that probably made more sense in my head)
I know you don't want to be too specific, because that can give the poem away. But maybe consider alternatives like "curse", or "melodramatic" or "you keep coming back"/"I can't forget you if I tried"

Much love, darlin' - keep it coming!
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Student Writer
Whoops, sorry for the late reply! ^^; I got the Craiglist thing, lol. Good point. I'll probably play around with it and see if I can come up with some kind of dramatic title that doesn't give it away. Thank you; I will! :hug:
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x-Sinister-Chaos-x Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Student
Also look up the Vagina Monologues :heart: (this is the last reply to myself, I swear)
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Student Writer
I'd never heard of that before! That's definitely an original idea for a play. :giggle: It's cool that the money benefits women, and I like that these people weren't afraid to tackle a subject like this. Very interesting! 
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x-Sinister-Chaos-x Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Student
Yeah, it is really cool that funding goes to support women who have been domestically abused, women in developing countries, etc. I also like how empowering it is, saying that women shouldn't be ashamed of their genitalia. I feel like that is kind of important with society - it's common to say "dick" or "penis" but if you bring up a woman's genitalia, it's almost taboo. Guy or girl can say "suck my dick", but if a girl says "suck my clit" (for example), it becomes more descriptive and vulgar, while "suck my dick" is a phrase that doesn't solicit a reaction: it is simply synonymous with "take that".

At the same time, why should men not have "the penis monologues"? Why should there be the separation of sexes? I don't know your position on feminism, but I have a male friend who put it very nicely by explaining that the ideals are fantastic, but the separation is what he does not approve of. There should not be "feminists" and "non-feminists", but there should be equal efforts from all within the group and those outside of it, as well. He really made me think, too, about the "separate but equal" prejudice in the US during the Civil Rights movement, until the decision against it in the 1960s.  Malcolm X was like "screw the white people we don't need their support YEAH let's GO back to Africa. We hate it here" but Martin Luther King Jr wanted the integration between the groups, which, in my opinion, seems a more fruitful attempt to achieve equality. 
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Student Writer
It's definitely something that people should think about. I think it's far past time for women to be treated equally and respectfully, personally. The separation of the sexes is just one more barrier between us as human beings. It would be nice if all people, men, women, black, white, trans, cis, and on and on until the sun drops from the sky could all be treated the same way. Will that ever happen? I don't know, but I hope it does. I agree. Until we can see past each others' differences, we're not going anywhere anytime soon.
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x-Sinister-Chaos-x Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2014  Student
There was a discrimination experiment conducted about 50 years ago by Jane Elliot with telling kids who had brown eyes they were better/blue eyes were inferior. I remember recently watching another of Elliot's discrimination experiments with whites and blacks, and she asked blacks if they wanted their race to be acknowledged. They said yes. When white people say "I don't think of you as black" she explained that it is ignorant and actually an insult because you are denying part of that person's essence by overlooking their physical appearance. I suppose in our case, it would be a man saying "I don't think of you as a woman" to try and assure us that we're equal. It's not a compliment to be exempt from a category when we want both categories to be viewed equally.
Women shouldn't need to abandon sex traits (such as dressing in suits or having a rigid mannerism and eliminating their femininity to be viewed as equal)
We have to accept different types of people for who they are and appreciate those differences and know that these differences do not make them lesser 
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2014  Student Writer
Whoa. See, I've never really thought of it that way before. I guess, in a way, equality makes us want to bring someone different on to our level. If someone was different, making them more like us would make them "equal" to us. 

Dude. 

That's crazy! And you're totally right about this...differences should be recognized and accepted rather than watered down into a smaller chunk.
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Kaiyo-chi Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
WOOOOOW XD This is epic. This made my day, great job!
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you, thank you! :heart: I'm glad!
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classifried Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're awesome
I mean, wow
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014  Student Writer
lol, thank you! :highfive:
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HAAHAAHAAAHA LOL
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lautuma Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
LMAO XD i really did lawl.  this is fantastic.  i started reading this with the full expectation that it was going to be something about an abusive relationship or so o.O but then the ending completely smacked me in the nose.  i love iiit. XDD
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you so much! :hug:
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cesura Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Until the last line, I totally thought this was about a bad relationship. Beautifully done.

Haha, also scrolled down to see if anybody else had had the same reaction, and spotted your "loki'd!" comment. It made me smile. You definitely loki'd me!
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you! hehe, I love loki!

Loki emot :D 
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Timeless-Romantic Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2014
LOL THE ENDING THREW ME OFF
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014  Student Writer
Loki'd La 
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NoriMori Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2014
The poem was pretty good, clever considering what it ended up being about, as well as very easy to sympathize with; but I found that the twist made the whole thing disappointingly anticlimactic. I felt cheated, to be honest.

Don't scrap it though. It's worth keeping.
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014  Student Writer
Thanks! Yeah, I can see why you would feel that way. I actually debated with myself about whether to keep it serious or add the twist to the end.
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Plutonian-Frostmonky Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2014  Student Writer
I was thinking about what a great metaphor for pain this is and how beautiful the imagery was and then read the ending and I was like, What the F*ck? Still beautiful though
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014  Student Writer
Haha, I gotcha! Thanks! :giggle:
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WHAT KIND OF BEAUTIFUL FUCKERY IS THIS????
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