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the heroin heroine

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Published: Jan 1, 2014

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_{how can you save someone
with tattoos and track marks?
they called him Jesse
and I loved him, I loved him
too much for my own good.

he was a burnt-out angel
with weathered grandfather wings
and an aluminum halo.
"please," I begged, incessant,
"please, stop. you're better than this."

I wrestled with his addiction
as though it was my own,
destroyed syringes straight from
the crook of his elbows.
I always knew he had one true love,
and it sure wasn't me.

his arm was pale and thin
around my shoulders,
pale and thin in the masquerade lamplight,
where he pierced his veins
in belt-constricted solitude.

one night, as I paced
with his bent silver spoon
clutched in my palms,
he told me that he needed it,
oh God, he needed it.
he needed that one slow descent
into black oblivion, that one place
where nothing existed to hurt him.

for the first time,
I realized my place.
whenever he kissed me,
he thought not of my lips,
not of my tongue.
he thought of a cool chill,
needles pricking,
poison soothing and infesting blood.

somehow he'd fallen into
an abusive relationship
with himself.

after midnight calls and taxi rides,
I found myself far from him.
when next we met,
he lay still beneath gray-shadowed eyelids.
this snow-covered man
died a snow-covered death,
alone but for broken glass
and bits of cotton along the floor.

yet I still love him.
God damn it,
I love him.}

_{I'mma take a second to be proud of myself for the play on words in the title. get it? _{'cause heroin and heroine sound the same? _no?}
So, here you have the first poem of 2014! I actually wrote it a few days ago, and only just edited it and decided to post it. I've recently become completely, entirely obsessed with Breaking Bad, so when I saw the episode where Jesse does heroin with Jane, I was inspired. I was yelling at my TV, "JESSE, NO, DON'T DO IT!" He's my favorite character. I also couldn't think of a name for the guy in the poem, so I just named him Jesse, un-creatively.
I hate how drugs ruin people.
Also, if anyone spoils Breaking Bad for me...I will end you.

That is all.

© 2014 littleblueraccoon}